Hi. As so many others before muust have said; I am new here. I decided I really wanted to look for a serious site when I discovered recently that I am perhaps not quite as unique and alone as I had thought. My revelation happened when I wathched an episode of “The L Word” recently. There was a term used to describe this guy, which was, Male Identified Lesbian. Now for some background. With no disrespect to anyone of any preference, I am male. I absolutely adore females. But it is more than that ~ I identify with them. I always have. I must clarify further…. I don’t wish to dress as a female or in any way try to change who I am. I am married, with a beautiful daughter, but I was late into marriage and fatherhood. From a very early age i felt different. I could not make male friends and was severely bullied at school. Not because I was effeminate, but rather because I just didn’t ‘get’ guys. Still don’t. I don’t understand the whole macho thing. I never know how to communicate guys. I am a fish out of water. When I got older and left home, I had loads of friends. ALL Female! I ran two meditation groups from home and honestly there were some days I had to take the phone off the hook. One of my best friends was and is, Helen. We were into a lot of the same things and she worked in a New Age bookshop where I spent many happy hours. She told me that I have a lot of feminine energy. This is explains not just why I could talk to females far more easily, but also why it seemed they liked talking to me. I guess I am a good listener. But also I felt where they were coming from. What this added up to for me, was someone who had loads of female friends, but no one special. I was just " Good old, ……". It seems I have so much feminine energy that nnone of those wonderful females ever considered me as a guy. Not in the dating, relationship kind of way. Back to the Lesbian side of things. I always used to say that if I was a girl, I would definitely be a lesbian. I just feel that so strongly. I love women. Cannot relate to guys. I do wish I was a woman so I could have a chance at that kind of relationship. However, as I have already said; I dont wish to have a sex change or anything. So….here I am……Married to a lady that I kept out of my life for the first 6 months after she moved into the flat next to where I was living. Funnily enough she eventually asked one of my friends if I was gay, because I resisted her for so long. I find that funny because as I have said to her; if I was gay; where were all the guys? I now have no friends as when I did hook up with my now wife all my female friends left. My wife doesn’t want me to have any. Perhaps understandably. What she can’t understand is that they really were all just friends. Though she does know after all this time that I dont relate to males. It has left me quite lonely as I now have no friends. Though one female that I new pre my wife has recently got back in touch and we reconnected like no time had past. This is just over the phone as she lives quite a ways from me. However, my wife is not happy at all, so don’t know how long I can keep that connection. So; for those of you still awake. I really do think I am a Male Identified Lesbian. I have found some other talk of it online since hearing it on The L Word. It makes so much sense to me, but is so difficult to explain. I am a guy, who doesnt want to change physically. I am attracted to females only, no offense to gay guys. I love to give pleasure as much as recieve it. But neither has happened in a long time. It is like I am Female to the core of my being, but in a man’s body Maybe some are curious about my marriage, but I really feel I have droned on long enough now. Thanks so much for reading and I would welcome your feedback so much.